Stress

I was so healthy when I met my husband and two step kids. I was getting monthly cycles and had so much energy. I got pregnant shortly after moving in with the family and miscarried. Since then I've had an abnormal pap and precancerous cells on my cervix that the doctor wasn't concerned abour(I am constantly..can't wait until my next pap). I also don't have a monthly cycle anymore. I'm so afraid because of the stress that comes with having a family, going to work and school, my fertility is ruined and I will never get to have a baby on my own. My step babies are wonderful and I should be more grateful for having them because no every woman with pcos gets to have step babies or babies are all. I just want to know the miracle of life too!:(