So long story short I was very abused as a kid and my mom convinced the doctors I was crazy, my mom had me tell doctors I wanted to kill myself so they would take me in and I would have a place to stay and she could throw a pity party for herself. I shouldn’t have lied, but I didn’t know any better and I wanted to go there because it got me away and I got fed and warm bed to sleep in. Now I’m really worried it’s going to affect me joining the military, this was all under tricare when I was a kid so it wasn’t with civilian doctors by the way.