I'm angry and I'm sad

I turned 13 weeks yesterday and I lost my baby by the end of the night. I've had spotting since 10 weeks and have been in hospital every weekend since.

I passed a big blood clot this past Monday, but ultrasounds on Monday and Tuesday showed great fetal movement and heartrate. Sometime between Tuesday and Friday (yesterday) I lost the baby. I had to have an ultrasound and there was no heartbeat detected and baby was as already in vaginal canal. They ended up doing a D&C late last night.

I'm so hurt by the thought it happened within 3 days and so angry that we just found out the gender and now we won't ever meet her. I'm so angry that all I can wear for comfort is my maternity clothes and I just bought yarn to make her a blanket. Now I can't even look at it. This year has been one crappy one. Within the past three weeks, our dog, cat, and now daughter have passed away.