I'm leaving

After almost 5 years of 🤬 he[[ I have built the courage. I called the women's center and came up with a safer plan... This time no matter what he threatens me with (killing himself, destroying my property, hurting me worse than he has) I will not stay and keep doing this ANYMORE! My daughter and I deserve better! Thank goodness it's not his kid. Thank goodness we arent married.

I just cant take the yelling, blaming, name calling. Or the abuse cycle, I didn't even know that was a thing until yesterday....

Hes just such an angry person.. always mad about something.. always yelling about something.. always blaming it on me even when its literally not my fault (like he lost all his keys to the house)

Im so glad my body or gardening angel didn't let me get pregnant with his babies because this would've been so much harder with more than 1 child and with his kids.

So im leaving.. I don't know when I dont know how he is such a Trigger person. So I need to be sneaky when I leave and leave fast and swift leaving most of my stuff behind. In hopes I get it back, my state has pretty big laws around destruction of property and my name is on the deed to the house so it is my house too he can not destroy my belongings for this reason without serious repercussions.

I'll fight my way through this just like I have fought to get to everything in my life. Nothing has come easy to me. And this won't be easy but its time to flee.. for my daught and I!

Ps posting anonymous due to knowing people on here and can not risk him knowing this is coming. This is scary and he is dangerous.. I am scared. This is very real. Ill update as soon as i leave and he knows ive left. Idc then if yall know its me.

Update: I did it!!! We are safe!! I am still scared but im at an undisclosed location and hoping he won't find us! I feel like i am seeing colors brighter and smelling the air more fresh! The weight is lifted off! Although he is still trying to guilt me into coming back I feel like i am so much better!!