I still have feelings for my ex

Hey ladies. Ok. I have a question. I have a baby daddy that relationship ended badly because he had a baby on me. When we dated we was happy but I went to go and he went to another school and cheated. Got a girl pregnant. So I walked out. So for the first few years... he was a dead beat. Now when she started kindergarten... he came around and I let him back in her life. He picks her up for school when I need him to and a good dad. So now she is in the fourth grade. Recently we have a conversation about where it went wrong. And it got me in my feelings. He want another shot. But the simple fact is I don’t trust him to get another shot but I can’t deny how I somehow still have love for him. But I feel like going back to him will be a huge risk and I don’t ever wanna feel that way again. We were young when I got pregnant. But he says he is more mature and he doesn’t wanna try to look for a wife when he has a family with me. So I ask myself this question the past few weeks. Who can I picture myself marrying in the future? And I feel like I can marry someone else knowing they not him but can I not think about him because of the love I once had with him.

I am torn on if he should have another chance with me. Should I??

Update to one comment: I have always had feelings for him. But just knew because he was a deadbeat that he not good for me. But now he is being there for his child. It is making me think 🤔 but fear is too big to want to pursue again. I fear if I do try and he cheat then I’m crazy. But if I do try and he a good guy that he maybe has grown. Then wow for trying. But I just don’t want it to bite me in the ass.