Down :(

Feeling jealous of all the cute babies that are being born early and healthy and my c section is Tuesday and I don’t even know if he’s healthy yet. I’ve had a very rough pregnancy and just want him here already. It’s hard seeing all the pics of the babies born. :(

Also i hemorrhaged with my first baby and I’m Terrified I’m going to bleed out with my second. I have like 6 of the risk factors for postpartum hemorrhage. Feeling terrified. Also afraid now that he’s going to try and come before Tuesday. I have to have a c section and it’s all planned out and I have childcare ready so now I’m nervous I’ll have him before Tuesday. I’ve had prodromal labor for over a week and have just been through so much this pregnancy. I wanted him to come at 37 weeks but my OB would Not let it happen so if he comes two days before my c section I’m going to be upset. And I’m nervous to get a c section. I’ve never had any surgery other than my wisdom teeth and that’s not even a big surgery. 😵