I'm lost...

I have had 2 healthy pregnancies that are now 14months and almost 4 years old (both boys). Both pregnancies were normal and I had zero complications. I am in my early 30s and never thought this would happen to me...

I am suppose to be about 8 weeks pregnant and my husband and I stupidly told the news to our close family because "why not...our previous 2 pregnancies were fine and we had no issues." Well, I have been bleeding red blood with some small clots for 4 days now and I'm pretty sure im losing my baby.

I went to the ER as soon as I noticed the blood was bright red. After 4.5 hours I was told the baby had a heartbeat and everything looked fine but since I was bleeding, I could be having a miscarriage. I went to my primary doctor the following day and he said thr same thing...yes, there's a heartbeat but baby is measuring smaller than expected so I might be having a miscarriage.

I am so lost and have no idea what to do. I am trying to stay strong for my 2 boys but its hard. My husband in my opinion isn't doing enough to help me deal but maybe it's just me placing my anger/sadness onto to him...?

I have been trying to do minimal work and not pick up my boys or anything heavy so my husband is suppose to be helping as much as possible. However, yesterday, he let me sleep in until about 9am. I would have like to sleep in longer but my 14 month old was crying nonstop so I woke up to see what was going on. My husband was carrying our 14 month old in the family room and my almost 4 year old was on the couch using his tablet. I had my husband take our 14 month old to oue bed and I breastfed him and he fell asleep within 10 minutes. I go back to the family room and my husband is asleep and snoring on the couch while our almost 4 year old is still on his tablet. Not going to lie, I was a little mad. I don't get why he thought sleeping while watching our almost 4 year old was ok. I mean what if I had fallen asleep with our 14 month old...then our almost 4 year old would have been alone.

Anywho, I was annoyed but let him sleep. While he slept, I noticed the house was a disaster so even though i just wanted to rest in hopes that it will help keep me from losing my baby, I ended up doing dishes and starting laundry, and cleaning the kitchen. By the time I finished, our 14 month old woke up and I asked my husband to wake up and get him. For thr remainder of the day my husband did ok with helping.

Now today, my husband is still asleep along with our almost 4 year old and my 14 month old and I have been awake since 6am. I had hoped that my husband would have set an alarm to wake himself up at 6am and offer to watch our 14 month old so I could rest but he didn't. I dont know if I'm expecting too much but I fell like if the tables were the other way I would be telling my husband to stay in bed all day and worry about our baby possibly being lost and I would be taking care of our 2 boys and cleaning the house and basically catering to my him until we had a final answer on the miscarriage.

Am I wrong? Shouldn't my husband be doing more? Am I just taking my anger/sadness out on him? How do I deal with most likely losing my baby? I just want to wake up from this damn nightmare already. 😔