Toxic relationship

Been in a relationship with someone for over a year. Expecting our second child in may, and I had to quit my job just to take care of our 4 month old because while I was working fulltime at home I witnessed the way he treated our son, and it was pretty crappy. Leaving him screaming in his bassinet, calling him annoying and yelling at me for constantly checking on him.

So I quit just because i was suffering from meeting qouta, and his complaints really got to me. It was frustrating working fulltime while he didnt do anything but sit on his ass.

Now that i’m out of a job he expects me to still pay half of the groceries.

I just think hey if you love someone you should be capable of being a wee bit understanding. I just don’t know how to approach him with it.

I’ve tried to leave the relationship its just been difficult for me. We broke up in the past, and he ended up finding me on dating sites and confronted me. Which i found odd because I just can’t seem to get away from him. My dad offered me to stay with him in missouri but im afraid of not making enough money to support my kids and myself. afterall they are only giving me 30 days to get my stuff together.

I used to be independent. I had my own apartment, and ever since he thought it would be better for us to move in its been difficult to see this being a stable environment for my children and myself. He does have depression too, and many individuals think I haven’t tried hard enough to be there for him. But spending a year with someone, always making sure their okay while your silently falling apart, and no one is there to make sure your alright it eats away at you like a cancer. Now I have depression and I feel more like a failure then ever for not being able to just pack our shit and leave.