Feeling so betrayed..

So, I’m posting anon mostly because I need to vent

But like...wtf. I asked my mom way early in the day if she could take my son because we got an invite to carve pumpkins and have some drinks. She called me an hour ago saying she needs us to get home to get our son. My husband talks on the phone with her, asking if everything is okay with our baby and she said he won’t go down to sleep. He keeps crying. He tells her that we’ve already a couple drinks (not even enough to be drunk, but we had our DD because we won’t drive if we’ve even had one beer), and she said we needed to get home and get him or she’s calling CPS.

I would ANYTHING for that kid. My son is what my life centers around. I sleep for 2-3 hours a day because of the hours I work, so me or my husband can be up and taking care of him and giving him the attention he needs and deserves. That boy is fed, clothed, clean, and loved. I asked if she could watch him for ONE night so my husband and I could just hang out and relax. We don’t have much time to do much.

Come to find out, it’s because her boyfriend was bitching at her because my son cried when laid down.

This is hitting me so hard because I know I’m a good mom to him, but there’s that small voice in my head that always says I could be doing better...