Finally happy

This is alot to read but i just wanna share my story

So I’ve never posted on here but I feel like I finally wanna share my story for years I was with what I thought was the man of my dreams we started dating when we were 16 we had our first baby when we were 20 married at 23 but I was living a lie the whole time he was a huge Manipulator he cheated on me numerous times to the point where myself worth was completely gone I gave him the option to sleep with whoever he wanted as long as I didn’t know them and I wasn’t related to them I believe it worked for awhile but then again I didn’t want to know I suffered from depression and anxiety I then found out when we were 27 that he had cheated on me with my cousin I thought my life was over I thought the pain was going to kill me bc for years he had it instilled in my head that no other man would want me, we separated then eventually divorced with agreed shared custody of our son, after that I had a couple really crappy relationship one with a cheater then one with a alcoholic I was very iffy about getting back into the dating world after that but then I met the most amazing man ever he has everything going for him in his life he’s got two amazing daughters that I adore he and my son get along and he goes out of his way all the time to remind me that he would never cheat on me or hurt me, Last weekend he went into the gas station I work at with another woman and my best friend messages me and tells me that she seen him there with the woman and she was worried about bc shes seen me hurt so many times and doesn’t want to see me hurt anymore so I messaged him just having a typical conversation and he told me that he was busy that day fixing up a car he was selling; The old Deanna would of instantly been in a massive anxiety attack overthinking everything but I put my trust in him and when I got to see him the next day Sunday he told me about going to the store with the woman bc she showed up super early to buy the car and he bought her food while she waited for him to finish because he a sweet man like that, He pushes me to pretty much go out of my comfort zone but always for the better he encouraged me to take a promotion at my store that 3 years ago i would never take