This is Pregnancy after Miscarriage

Took a test on a whim.. instantly positive.

Excited, cried happy tears.

Instantly remembered the PTSD from my pregnancy 2 years ago... we got pregnant in October. Now I’m pregnant again, in October.

I feel like I’m cramping, which I know is my mind playing cruel tricks on me.. because once the negative thoughts crept in, I felt sick to my stomach.

I’m terrified of losing another baby. It almost ruined my marriage, but we came through the fire stronger than ever.

I’m terrified of losing another baby out of fear of never having a living baby this side of heaven. I want to be a mother to a living baby.

Ladies who are pregnant with their rainbow, or have given birth to a rainbow, how do you do this for 9 months?