Postpartum Medication Question

Good evening!

I want to preface this with, I’m a registered nurse and I’m pretty educated in PPD but a lot of what we learned in school was throw medication at it. I’m not interested in medication.

I’m 100% sure I’m suffering from PPD and anxiety. I see a “therapist” (counselor) through the VA and I think they are afraid to make an actually PPD diagnosis but I have been struggling so much. Honestly, I don’t think it would have been as bad if I had a support network in place but between having my baby mid-Covid in June and my husband basically not helping me with anything until recently, it may have been more manageable. I am very nervous about accepting any kind of medication. I’m already struggling with breastfeeding and the last thing I want to do is ANYTHING that could harm my baby boy through my breast milk.

Have any of you found holistic ways to manage your PPD/Anxiety? I’ve been having a lot of heart palpitations due to the anxiety and extreme bouts of anger and resentment from the depression. I don’t have support so “getting away from the baby for a little bit” has been almost impossible.

Any advice helps, thank you!