Beach body on demand

Should I join beach body on demand? I’ve tried Kayla itsines BBG program and it was way too hard/I motivating for me so that was a waste of $$. And I tried YouTube videos but couldn’t find anything I liked, then I tried just doing my own workouts but lacked the motivation so now I’m wondering if it would be worth it to join beach body and do their online videos and programs. There seems to be so much variety on it. I’m just dying to lose weight. I need to drop at least 35lbs then I’ll be happy.