He’s finally here!💙💙 Bit of a read

So it’s been a week!

I went in for induction on October 4th (babys due date) at noon and started the induction process at 7pm. They gave me cervidil for 24 hrs and then put a gel on my cervix for 6 hrs. After 30hrs I was finally 1cm dilated and they were able to put the foli balloon in. They put that in on October 6th at 7am and by 10am I was 4cm dilated and my water broke. I labored till about 2pm and then ended up having to have my son by csection due to his heart rate dropping a few times. The whole 30+ hrs of pain, I knew I’d end up in a csection and was so frustrated and should have just gone with the csection in the first place. I had my beautiful baby boy at 253pm October 6, 2020. He is absolutely perfect in every way and so worth every moment of frustration and crap. It’s been a little over a week since he was born and he is an amazing little boy, but the first couple nights were rough and postpartum is no joke. I am so happy and thankful to have my little boy but omg the emotional roller coaster that your body goes through after having a baby is insane. You here and talk about it but it doesn’t matter much you do that it still doesn’t prepare you for the ups and downs you’ll have. I’ve been so great full to have my mom here helping me and am not looking forward to her going back home on Saturday (she lives 10hrs away). Yes my fiancé is here, his family is here and my dad and aunt are only 1.5 hrs away but even though these people are here I still feel lonely.

I knew it would be hard and that’s ok but never imagined how difficult it would to try and take care of a new born and a csection incision. I have home wound care that comes in everyday to look at my incision and change the bandages but then I have to change them at night, which is fine and has been ok bc my moms been watching the baby while I do that but once she’s gone I’m all alone. I love my baby boy more than I ever could have imagined and know that things will get better each day, just have to take it day by day and just breath.

This is my beautiful boy💙