Shy anxious

How do you get over being shy

When strangers come by I have a hard time opening up and talking to them

How do you get over anxiety

How do you feel better about yourself have confidence

Story: I used to smile say hi make small talk was comfortable with people went to college would chat but I had a boyfriend and he told me he didn't want me talking to any men even teachers I needed a tutor he said not unless it's a women he made these rules to hold his hand in public don't look at other men he would start fights with them men would approach me say hello or say you are beautiful and he told me to dress a different way so I started dressing like a grandmother I couldn't deal with the control even when I had to access my online test he wanted to hover make sure I wasn't messaging with anyone and he tried to keep me in his house he tied me with duct tape it was crazy I did file a report

So I thought my bf that I've known for years did this to me therefore there must be a lot of bad people especially seeing the news so I kept looking down and avoided people I stopped talking to friends because I felt they would judge or not understand what happened

I don't know how to fit in like I feel different

All my life I've liked things before they became popular

I'm not sure what to do with myself I go in a room of people and I stand out but I'm so shy not to mention its difficult to trust and I'm not sure if what I like is currently in or I think about trying to make everyone happy but a lot of times I hide who I really am

How do you be authentic and not give a someone judges