I'm pregnant and bfs forcing me to have abortion that I dont want

Hi I'm currently 12 weeks pregnant and we have 2 children together. He has told me to get an abortion and when I ask his reason he says "2 is enough end of or because I said so" so apparently because he says so I should follow his command!? I dont agree with abortion and I had a miscarriage last year at 10 weeks at home I hemoraged badly by myself, he wasnt home and i saw the baby. I had a mental break down I couldn't handle it, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't close my eyes without seeing and reliving it while he told me to get over it🥺! I cant imagine knowing that this baby is 2 weeks older and I know what it looks like and to do that by purpose I feel sick. I know I cant handle that emotionally or mentally but I feel so pressured by him to do it cos he says he wont help me or be around. He just closes off from me and leaves me to deal with my feelings. I havent told anyone else I'm pregnant so dont have anyone else to talk to but him. What should I do I have our first scan on tuesday??

For the person or anyone else who wants to say I made bad decisions by not being on birth control I had a depo shot which made me hemorrhage badly for 5 months straight I had no choice but to come off it as I nearly needed a blood transfusion! Think before u judge someone!