feels impossible ...

i just want an apartment with my son. i’m 19 and have a 1 year old. i live with a family member. i have no car and no job. i’ve tried getting a job at a daycare and actually got hired but then had no means of transportation. the job was 45 minutes away because of the area i live in so uber would be my whole paycheck. the reason for choosing a daycare job is so my son could attend cheap.

said family member is the only one i have left, my dad died and stepmother kicked me out. i don’t even know where to begin at this point. the only thing i can think to do is work online but i can’t find anything legit. i watch my son all day every day. i need to live on my own and have a job and car. i can’t live like this anymore. i get government assistance for food stamps and some cash so at least i don’t burden them with buying my food and diapers and stuff as well.

please give me advice, what do i do?! i feel so STUCK. i need to live. i’m miserable as it is. i’m so embarrassed of my situation, nobody knows what happened to me after my dad died. i stopped telling my friends everything. they just know i’m out of state (where the family member lives) i want an apartment back in my home state. i want a job and a car and a LIFE. please give me advice. where do i even start? i’m lost...