First miscarriage

Found out I was pregnant oct.13th went through the symptoms I was super excited so was my boyfriend then started having bad cramps on October 26th so I went to the hospital and the doctor gave me the bad me there was no baby I had a blighted ovum snd what I was going through was a miscarriage 😔😔 I catch myself crying at the most random moments and I cry harder when I think of my due date 😭 now Im scared that whe I get pregnant in the future I’ll be scared my whole pregnancy 😔 I feel like I sound ridiculous 😔