I need advice please

Before I start please do not judge me as this is already hard for me.

Back story my IUD came out and I was bleeding went to the hospital found out I was pregnant with IUd and lost the baby. That was back in February/March. Now during the whole virus thing I couldn't get an appointment to have things sort out regarding birth control, so I went the calendar way every time its ovulation time I told my husband to stay away and text him the calendar on his phone. He didn't respect my wish ( oh I wished I kicked his balls) anyway I gave in yes my fault too because so much talk how he is married and can't even enjoy this enjoy that.

I started getting sick and period was lighter and lasted 2 days found out May I was pregnant. Told him I was already 5 weeks and the jerk told me to get plan b and he is supposed to be this Christian man. Long story short I wasn't going to get an abortion and went through a miscarriage 2 months earlier. I was heart broken and still is.

Every time I go to my appointments he never asks about the baby nothing. He doesn't even know when I'm DUE, never took me not even one appointment well we have other kids but the fact that he never talks about this child I kept the pregnancy to myself. Only 1 person I know knows. And now he went and told his mother without my say in it.

Anyway I want to knownis will that be selfish of me to not let him be there for the birth because I seriously feel abandoned and ignored his unborn child

I will be scheduled for a csection but I don't want him to be there and I feel when in Labor I'll just go on my own. Or should I ask a friend to go with me which I didn't even tell her yet about the baby. Please give me some input on what you would do and no its not my hormones because I really don't want him there. I'll be 26 weeks tomorrow.