Not understand by my husband 😭😭

I’m in my first trimester so my third pregnancy ( 2 kids previous marriage ) after my divorce I got married again with a man that I was convinced he will love me and respect me ( he doesn’t have any kids ...yet )

He loves my kids and he always wanted to have his own kid so it happened to get pregnant... I found out a week ago . I announced to my actual husband he was in heaven he couldn’t believe it ! I have big kids already 15 years my first and 8 years old the second . I’m 36 years old and I thought being married with a man who loves kids will be great if we have another one ( he always told me he wants a kid with me ) but I think I’m wrong ....

Since I told him he realized that I’m tired after coming from work and I’m taking short naps ... and I’m a bit moody . he’s not used to see me like this so he start poking me that I’m in the bed I don’t much bla bla ... we had arguments I’ve tried to explain him thats normal for a pregnant woman to feel tired ( I work all week plus the kids the chores cooking, bills etc ) .

I am afraid I did again the wrong choice in my life . And I’m pregnant almost 5 weeks now and I want to be in pace with this pregnancy not in stress because he doesn’t care like I see my symptoms will change more with the time and but I feel I’m alone again .... but he wants that kid but without taking care of the mom !

I’m so disappointed and discouraged now I had my tension going up by hearing his words !

Sorry but I needed to vent I’m hiding to write and cry alone so kids can’t see me .