POST PARTUM 😞

3 weeks PP..

this is my second child and I’m struggling to find that balance.. some days are better than others.

BUT lately I feel upset I find my self crying more times than usual I don’t have as much help from my partner as he works and has had to a few days after bub being born so I have been alone.

I feel upset & weak tonight I just went for a shower and cried in there alone that’s all I wanted was to be alone and I’m in bed and just cannot get out I feel weak & just had to leave the kids with my partner.. my only thoughts is I just want to leave just drive away from everyone my partner and my family or I have thoughts of taking myself away for good because it would be best not being here and I sound so silly to even say... but I love them there’s so precious... why do I feel this way & why cannot I not stop these thoughts I feel like a horrible mum because I love them.. but I feel like inn failing them 😔😞