Scared of dying in labour?

Hi mamas,

I’ve had complications in the past that have left me traumatized about dying in labour like a huge hemorrhage etc.

I have two kids and that is the only reason I’m scared. If this was a first baby thing..I wouldn’t really think about death but I have anxiety and fear and sadness.

My solution before covid was going to bring my kids with me so they were near incase something happened but of course now I can’t due to covid rules.

Anyone else have these feelings??? I have a counselling and everything but can’t shake my fear away.