Advice please

Husband really really wants another baby, it is good timing but I am still not feeling ready but it's either now or another year. So we're trying. I told him because I don't really want to be pregnant I'm going to need him to be really sensitive to my needs and help with whatever he can.

I feel like just a thing to be impregnated. I don't feel like his wife. He's been so confrontational today and I've cried a lot today and fought off 3 panic attacks, because of the disagreements we've had. I thought we had a good evening and got past stuff, then I remembered that I hadn't done my lock check yet that day.(I'm an on site manager for storage bays) it would only take 10-15 minutes.

I know that I can make things about myself sometimes too, but he really has thought about his needs and wants only today. He got angry at me for forgetting and didn't want to go out with me, he said I forget all the time and I need to do things to not forget so he doesn't have to do this.

I didn't want to move here but he agreed that he would help me if I got the job. Well here we are and he never wants to help. He said that it interfered with his plans to have sex, it's dark and I was scared to go out alone, and I have to go out because my boss is coming tomorrow. I told him I'm going out anyways so you're plans are still ruined. I am scared of the dark/ scared of a dangerous person possibly in the facility.

I am not just this female body to be impregnated, I am a human who needs love and understanding. I don't understand how you can treat a human this way then expect to have sex afterwards. Make love when you've been nothing but mean. I don't get it.

Edit:. After I told him how I felt he got angry at me then went to bed. I'm crying in the bathroom alone.