Good bye grandma hello pain

Yesterday was my grandma’s funeral. While everyone around me was crying i didn’t even feel anything. I was so numb to it all. I learned how to turn off my emotions a long time ago. Once i got back home from the funeral i broke down. Now my body hurts all over and i’m so exhausted i can barley keep my eyes open even though i already slept more than 13 hours. Grandma is in a better place now it’s just hard to lose the one’s you love. Life is so hard sometimes but i’m get through it just like i always do.