Advice - Venting

Hi,

I honestly feel silly posting here but I don’t know who to turn too and I need to vent. I am 27 weeks pregnant with mine and my husbands second child. We have been married 4 years and together for 8. As in all marriages we have our ups and downs and right now it’s been feeling like a lot of downs but we have always made it through.

Well I caught my husband last night with naked photos of women, videos of him jerking off and an account he set up on Talk with Strangers. I am devastated. We have had an issue like this in the past but when we first started dating and were figuring us out. It did hurt but we moved past it. We had some issues with porn but again we moved past it. However this, this hurts more than anything. I don’t understand it, I know I have gained quite a bit of weight, I suffered severe post partum depression and haven’t been the nicest person or the best mother. So I feel like this is my fault.

He was telling me we have been going through rough patches and he didn’t know where to go and wanted to escape/not be himself. I guess I understand because believe me I wish I could change things too but I don’t understand wanting to hurt someone else, willing to throw away a marriage or the need to talk to other woman.

The thought of divorce is scary and I am not sure if it’s something I want to do. But I don’t know what else to do. Am I overreacting?

Anyone been through this or something similar. Any one have any recommendations or support?

Sincerely,

Truly hurt.