Where to start 34 and 2 will be induced within the next 3 or 4 weeks

So just feel like I need to vent a little as my now husband I wasnt with when my first daughter was born and I dont think he fully grasps how traumatic her birth was for both her and I. This time around I have GD (controlled for the moment ) I will be induced early due to my first daughter getting stuck at the shoulders and being to large to properly fit through my pelvis. 8lbs 5 oz. I'm so unbelievably terrified of giving birth this time I almost lost my daughter and I blacked out more than once due to blood loss from her birth as well. I cant get past the fear I know I dont have a choice and I know my ob will do what's best for us both hw didn't deliver my daughter as he was finished his rotation and is assuring me he will be there this time due to the circumstances I'm just so utterly terrified now add in covid to it all and I feel like I'm going to go insane