TW:sexual assault & Repressed memories....

Again trigger warning: sexual assault, childhood trauma.

32, and recently someone an old childhood...”friend” messaged me on FB, congratulating me on the birth of my son. We grew up together, our families have been friends for 25 years. Her and I never got along well once we hit middle school. She is a compulsive liar, and just a not kind person. So once I wasn’t forced to spend time with her because of our families hanging out, I didn’t.

Anyways, I told her thanks and the conversation was pretty short aside from small talk. That night, I woke up in a cold sweat and felt all these memories come rushing back. I KNOW they real and not just a dream or figment of my imagination, I can’t explain how though.

When we were younger, probably 8-10, we used to play house with all of our siblings. And she would always make us the mom and dad. Every time “mom and dad” would go play in her bedroom alone while the “kids” stayed home. In these memories, I remember her telling me to kiss her and touch her privates. She would hold my hands over her vagina while she humped me.

I don’t feel traumatized by remembering this, I feel disgusted and it makes me hate her, but I don’t violated? But I want to tell my husband about it, but I’m not sure to what end. I don’t know what I’m expecting the outcome to be. He knows who she and her family is, but doesn’t talk to them ever.

Her parents are still good friends with mine. All of us are grown now of course and have kids of our own.

I guess I’m not really asking for advice, I just needed to tell someone.

Thanks for reading.