AF started so mad! Am I wrong?
Is it wrong to be utterly upset? That I feel my body is just being so cruel? Why is everyone around me having babies and I'm not?! I'm so jealous and hurt. I put on a happy face for all my friends, when they are just glowing with happiness. Why God? Why not bless me also? I would be a fantastic mother I would love that baby with everything in my sole.
I go to a store and see a mother that I know shouldn't have a child, freezing cold no jacket just socks on! I'm jealous of her. That baby needs love. Ignored in the buggy crying because she wants a dollar cookie. She's acting silly jumping and get scolded and spanked.
Why must I be punished with this strong maternal instinct and I'm just denied. Over and over. Trying and trying my husband is so upset. I'm getting emotional and there is nothing he can do to help.
We have already went thru heart ache that I wasn't sure I could come back from. Losing a Baby at 14weeks. I want my rainbow baby to love to bless my husband with the child he deserves and to bring more love in this world that it so desperately needs. Am I wrong?
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