Yes we decided on separation two weeks ago, he'd 'warned' me it was coming several times but i kept fighting for our marriage because I dont listen to him and dont respect him he says.

Hes cheated on me before by talking to his ex gf from high school that was 2 yrs ago. We were married for 6 months at that point and recently had our 1st child. He was 2 months old at the time. Hes now 2 yrs old.

Well I had come to accept the separation, maybe it would be better us friends. I decided to go on our childs tablet on a whim a couple days ago, our husbands gmail is attached on there.

I was just going on google to look up something. I see in the history bar 'okcupid'. My heart immediately broke but I didnt cry because of hatred. A part of me probably always known, didnt believe it.

Ive looked at his history, and its porn, okcupid on the website several times, and snapchat. He said snapchat was him talking to his best friends brother.

I havent confrontes him about okcupid bc he would just lie. I feel theres no point and i actually sont know what to do.

I havent been on since to look because i just dont think i could take it.

I know its his email bc its also on his computer in our room. The same picture etc. I dont know how to feel. I need advice on how to continue...

He says he wants separation then that we can try to fall in love again and im at a loss.