Depression

Hey ladies... I’m not one to usually post on anything but I’m struggling. I’m 16w5d and for most of my life I have struggled with diagnosed depression but have been able to manage it. Lately I just can’t control my feelings, and not in the cliche pregnancy rollercoaster of emotions way. I feel no connection with myself or even my baby, I forget that I’m even pregnant usually because I just don’t feel anything. I was so happy when I found out but those feelings have faded. I am crying and fighting about everything, I feel hopeless all the time and I’m worried about the affects it will have on myself and My baby after I give birth. Will I love him or her? Will I just get over these feelings and move on? My boyfriend fails to have a sensitive bone in hid body so he is just blaming it on my pregnancy hormones but I know it’s not just that. What do I do?