I’m scared

My first pregnancy lead to a missed miscarriage. I felt great and amazing up until my appointment. No warning signs until I had my ultrasound and I was measuring 3 weeks behind. Then I had to wait 2 agonizing weeks during which time I eventually started feeling horrible and even went to the ER because I passed a clot, hoping the baby grew and maybe I could do something to save the pregnancy. Was diagnosed with subchorionic hematoma and told to bed rest until my appointment which confirmed the missed miscarriage. I knew by then because the ER ultrasound showed no growth and I was devastated. I had a d&c but had retained tissue so it was painful for me. My ER visit was horrible too as the technician taking my ultrasound kept yelling at me and I was in severe pain, trying not to move while she had no sympathy. After this experience and my d&c, I was determined to find a caring OB because I knew how important it was and how fragile life is.

Now, I’m fortunate enough to have a chance again. My new OB is very careful with me. I thank God everyday and pray that my baby will be healthy and all right. The road has not been easy. I have chronic health conditions and am labeled high risk. My body also has trouble maintaining pregnancy. I have been taking progesterone. Been on bed rest for almost 2 months. I had a subchorionic hemorrhage. I bled with clots and it was so scary. I would be spotting. So, I took my bed rest seriously. Now, I’ve been cleared to move around the house only and take it easy. Yesterday, I bent down because I dropped some things maybe 3-4 times throughout the day. Today, I was so hungry so I took out a bit heavier container in the refrigerator to take out my food. I didn’t realize how heavy it was. I’m so scared I hurt the baby and I don’t know. How do I calm down? I’m so scared. I don’t like to keep asking for my husbands help because he has to work remotely too. But, I’ve decided it’s worth bothering him because I don’t want to do anything too risky. In the past my doctor told me to be very careful to not pick up anything heavy or bend too much. Am I just being a worry wart?? So scared.

Thank you to whoever read this and keep me in your prayers.