What to do?

Sabrina

I have never had a sexual toy before but I want one being that in my relationship i see my boyfriend about once a month and he dosnt really like how horny I am but it’s inevitable I haven’t seen u in a whole month and fingering Is getting over played I miss the real thing so every once in a while I ask can i get a toy but he says no and says if i get one he will not give me the real thing when we see each other what do I do ? 🤣🤣