Chemical or miscarriage

Our transfer day was 12/3

WeTransferred 2 embryos,

I believe both took because I got a dark positive only 5 days post transfer.

My line remains very strong positive until 8days post transfer then started to go lighter on 9dpT which is also blood work day. Number were low so we were told it’s most likely just one now.

then my HCG numbers dropped and now we lost both :-(

Since all this is happening by 4wks and 3-4 days now is this a miscarriage or a chemical pregnancy?

Why is it very very hard from some people to just have a child ?

Why is my body failing me, what did I do wrong to deserve this?

So devastated!

My husband doesn’t want to try anymore because this place was our 4th Transfer and second miscarriage.

Now I feel like I lost every hope