Share so we can comfort each other

I would like to see if anyone would like to share their story of their losses so that we can all feel less alone. I hope it can be therapeutic for us.

4 years ago, I went on birth control because I was afraid of getting pregnant and not being prepared for it. I wasn’t as informed about it as I should have been because I had unprotected sex the day I got it. Weeks later I felt something was wrong. I tested and found out that I wasn’t careful enough. Then I started bleeding. I went to the doctor and my body seemed to be clear.

A year after that, we were actually trying and I felt super nauseous one week so I decided to test. I didnt have health insurance so I couldn’t just go to the doctor like I did before. A few weeks later, I felt the worst cramps and had heavy bleeding. It hurt so bad and I cried so hard. It was the anniversary of my grandmothers passing.

In July of this year, I was testing my ovulation to make sure we were more careful with sex again. We were using condoms but it was so spontaneous that we decided to use withdrawal method. A few weeks later, I tested just to make sure nothing to worry about. It was positive again. I was happy but worried at the same time. 3 weeks later, I bled heavily. I took another test and it turned negative.

I’ve been trying to heal and be happy but it’s difficult with feeling so alone in my situation. I hope we can feel more together.