Narcissistic or just an ass

Today has been hell!! Got woken up in the morning to “dipshit are you awake?” “Yes” “my fucking gas bill is £714” “what why is it that much” “ because you sit with it on all day” “ granted I’ll give you some money towards it” “ don’t bother”

Day goes on phones to tell me to go to Asda for toilet roll.

He’s an hour late in from work.

I sit downstairs he moves up try to follow him same happens again.

Pluck up the guts to say are you pissed “yes”

“But I offered to pay some of it”

“ you don’t have it to give”

“Ok so what do you want me to do go home or?”

“You can do what you like?” Says it every time it drives me mad!!

So I done something I wouldn’t usually do and went home left without saying a word!

This man calls me fat, says I have baggy boobs, a huge hole etc I take it on the chin

I do everything for him I sit in all day with my 2 year old and watch his dog (I’m allergic) I do his washing I tidy his room I run errands for him. His pigging 14 grand car is in MY name. Which he pays for. Everything on my credit cards are 60% his stuff I think I have a coffee machine on one and a small shopping spree on the other!

And now he’s got me lying here unable to sleep because I feel so guilty about the gas bill! He won’t even speak to me!

I love him so much I don’t want to lose him I’m afraid of losing him!! I know mentally it will destroy me!! But I am trying to stay strong. Not grovel etc.

P.s I have my own house.