Just need to vent

I am extremely happy with my fiancé and I love him so much Ik we are already a family but I feel unhappy lately ever since the anniversary of losing our baby I just feel like I’m at a all time low I don’t sleep or eat good. I feel extremely bad about my body. I don’t feel happy around my family I just want to be pregnant already. I feel so depressed and don’t even know where to start with feeling better I saw my councilor but it didn’t help much. I’m falling behind in school. I’m eating like crap. I’m not eating good or sleeping. My acne is breaking out extremely bad from not taking care of myself. I can’t even take care of dealing with family issues. I just am ready for a baby and feel like it’s never gonna happen