I want to have a baby. My husband does not, understandably

I want to have a child so bad, but my husband does not want anymore children. He already has two with another woman. While I think the world of his children, I desire one of my own.

Prior to marriage, I didn’t think I’d ever want to have children of my own. I didn’t think it was possible because a doctor had told me in the past that it would be very difficult, and I may be infertile due to uterine fibroids and endometriosis.

Earlier this year I had a surgery, and my new doctor told me that I could get pregnant. I never considered having a child. And now it’s all I can think about.

I’ve never loved anyone before my husband. I love him so much. I don’t want to lose him. But I also want a child of my own, and I know he’s not going to change his mind. I’m also not the type to get pregnant anyways. I don’t want to trick him.

I don’t want to divorce him. I love him so much. But I want a baby.

Sounds like I’ll never have that. It makes me sad, but it took me so long to find my husband.

I’m just getting things off my chest. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone in my circle about it.