It’s hard to say goodbye

I have to say, my 2020 wasn’t as bad as people who families have died of COVID compare to.

Overall I went to a psych ward, grew out my hair, and now I must say goodbye to a good friend.

This isn’t a human friend, but my cat Iris, who unfortunately is suffering from cancer.

Iris has been by my side since kindergarten. She was the runt of the litter and very shy, but she grew up to a beautiful feline.

Like I said in a previous post, Iris hasn’t been eating much or been social. We took her to the vet and low and behold the sorrowful truth. She has 10-30 days to live.

It’s been 6 days now and I can already tell she’s getting worst. She has become a shell of what she once was, her fur is oily from not grooming, you can see her bones...we have been giving her medicine, baby food, and fancy cat food and it worked for a while until now.

The worst part of all this is we don’t have the funds to cremate her. My family was hit hard by my medical bill since my discharge and we are struggling with Iris’s medicine already. I feel like a psychopath for saying this but I want to keep her skull. Maybe I’m going insane...

Fuck 2020, you’ve been the most hurtful year of my life