Does the fear ever go away

I’m 29+1 today and I would of thought by now the fear of miscarriage would go away. Like once I started feeling kicks I was like ok maybe now I can calm down. Nope I feel like it’s worse. She has some quite days still which I’m thinking is normal idk I mean she hits 10 kicks in less then and hr.but those days that she’s quite scare me the most.. I still get nervous to buy things because I fear of jinxing things. This is my first pregnancy and I feel like I stressed more then enjoyed it. Please tell me I’m not the only one feeling like this