Wedding anxiety

My wedding is in 3 months

Im so anxious and scared

Im so confused

I dont feel like i know what i want anymore

I just see the negatives

I was dealing with anxiety and stress even before this so i try to ignore this and just keep going

I was so happy at first

So excited

I knew this was what i wanted

Not anymore

I get sad when i think about the wedding coming so soon

Im moving to his country

Im leaving everything behind

Everything i know

Everything i love

My big family

The delicious food

Even he enjoyed christmas better over here

Im scared i will be unhappy

I know i thought everything through when i said yes

But now all i feel is anxiousness

I dont feel ready

I feel i wasted the past year being anxious and depressed, that i didnt enjoy my last year single

The wedding is coming and i feel so broken

I dont feel like im ready

I still struggle with anxiety and depression

I dont know what to do