Soooo ,

I am 26 , my son just turned 2 . My fiancé has 2 prev kids . So my son was a very difficult baby in my opinion , I couldn’t wait till he grew out of the clingy stage and sleep deprivation . So after my emergency csec I was traumatized and swore I’d never have a nother but now that I see my son around his other siblings he’s so happy and when they are not here every other weekend he’s lonely I feel . So now I am open to having a second BUT my mind is just thoughtful because before COVID we were so excited for our son to be atleast 2 to take him w us on vacations and do fun things well never happened and we’d love to travel but w two kids ?? . . My fiancé says he doesn’t want to be too old and still be having kids well it would be his 4th and only my second so I feel he’s kinda done which is ok I’d like atleast 2 and be good . So I’m thinking should we try soon or wait till this COVID thing calms down ? I live in Houston so everything is pretty bad still... I just need to make my appt to take out mirena because it’s hurting me during sex , but I’d get on the pill next now my fiancé is telling me not to get on anything and see what happens 🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️ idk what should I do , I loveeed being pregnant but I’m scared to get cut again 😞