Feel abandoned 😞

Feel so abandoned 😢I’m crying writing this 😭 I just had a baby she’s 6 weeks , and her dad wants nothing to do with her at all or even me , he’s verbally and emotionally and physically abuse me 😢it’s really effected me I’m struggling with my mental health , when I was pregnant people were telling me he will change when he sees his baby but he didn’t change at all , I don’t know what’s wrong with him we’re both teens I’m 18 and he’s 19 , I love him I know me saying that about someone who hurts me sounds stupid but I don’t know what to do it’s hard to forget about him when I have a baby with him I just don’t know how to move on I’m just really have a hard time, my social worker has been telling me to go counselling but I don’t like opening up to people about how I feel , I feel like I’m dying in silence 😞