Okay so I’ve been speaking and sleeping with my babydad out of fear he will burn my house down or hurt my family if I do not speak to him, anyway I have a non molestation order in place which makes this worse and he isn’t allowed around our kids due to social however every time I met him I met him alone and left the kids with my mom. We got discharged and I still have not taken my kids around him. Today he’s threatening to blow himself up in his house or come to my house to “end it with me properly” however I told him “itsfine I know there’s no need to come to my house” I’m terrified. Id love to state one reason why he’s saying this but he jumps from argument to argument about the littlest things; me not blocking someone even though he didnt say to, me appearing on someone’s profile yet they’re blocked on my profile, me wanting lip fillers (I ain’t allowed them due to the fact they’re for “sucking dick” and “other men”) H e’s threatening to show the police out conversations but I was speaking to him because of everything in the past he had done to me he traumatisedso much even when i have a choice I feel like I don’t because he scared me.

I feel stuck i want to end my life what do I do I have been so stupid and I realise that I shouldn’t let my fear and trauma get the better of me but it’s to late as hestaking it to far