I feel like a terrible mom

Here I am on the bed at 36 weeks pregnant, my 1 year old is playing with the same toys in the same room he’s been in for basically months besides the grocery store or occasional outing. I’m too exhausted to get up and do anything with him, sometimes I resort to kids YouTube videos so I can sleep for an hour.

I’m sure he feels like I don’t pay attention to him, he’s been acting out and doing things for attention because he doesn’t get enough. All I can do all day is lay on bed, I force myself to make him food and put him to sleep. It feels like I’ll never have the energy again, sometimes I wish I didn’t get pregnant again. Me and my son aren’t nearly as bonded