Ghosting

I ghosted a guy after meeting him for the first time in September. We met up at his house and only talked for 30 minutes because I had to pick up my sister. He was so into me, cared about me and opened up to me about things he never told anyone. At least that’s what he told me. It kinda scared me because I never had someone so into me. I was questioning him and  skeptical. I never had anyone like me or show true interest in getting to know me. I ghosted him because of his looks (which is wrong) and he talked with a lisp? Over the phone he did not have one. Recently I been thinking about how it went down and how rude that was of me. And he was so nervous to met me and to mess things up! I blocked him soon after I got home. Looking back I would’ve be a pleaser to him and agree on things I wouldn’t now. I did not love myself enough or know what I wanted at the time to be in a fully committed relationship. I got scared and ran!

We’re in January now and I decide to DM him. I don’t know if it was the right decision or not. I just want him to know that I’m sorry? Because no one should get ghosted like that.