Birthday Tomorrow

Tomorrow is my birthday and people keep bringing it up and asking if I’m exciting/telling me I should be happy but honestly it just makes me really sad. I lost a baby in May who would have been born in December. It really tore me up and put me in a terrible place. I’m now pregnant with my rainbow who’s due this May. I’m just sad because I had it in my head that I’d have my baby at 21. Now I’m turning 22. I know that it shouldn’t matter and it’s just a 5 month difference but it just seems like a reminder of what could have been. Just another reminder that my baby is gone and I’m moving on, whether I like it or not.

Has anybody else felt this way?