I worry. All the time. I need help. I don’t want to tell any one even my best friend cause I feel that every one I know, I’m hanging onto them by a thread.. I often tell my best friend she mean the world to me, and she knows nothing of this, is that a problem? I worry that no likes me that I’m always gonna die that people are gonna leave me the moment I lose my little worth I have... I’m the smart friend, will they leave me the moment I stop helping them with school when they ask? I’m the friend who NEEDS to be told your their friend. Who NEEDS explanation and to be told how much I mean to you. I need recurrence in telling me that you still wanna be my friend. In my family it’s fight for love or leave. Be perfect or get out. My sister has volleyball going for her and I’ve been an A student my whole life but recently I’ve been failing math and now I’ve lost all my worth to my mother. My sisters homophobic and ever since I turned 7 she’s been taking every swing for a punch she can weather it’s a physical punch or not and I care out recently and now it’s gotten worse. I’ve always that that’s how you show love but now I feel like I might lose my friends if I continue being the friend who insults and stuff like that, but I don’t know any way else to express stuff like that.. what do I do? Is there anything to do? Is this even normal?