Single

So I learned yesterday that I am the only single person is my cousin and friends circle. I don’t know how I should feel, because I have no emotions 😐 about it. Everyone in my circle has a partner. I can’t hang with my cousins and friends like I use too. I thought about somethings all last night after I talked to my cousin. And I am tired of the cycle that I keep going through. I would start talking guy for like a week and then he would just stop talking to me or I would just stop talking to him. I would ignore the guys text while he continues to try to talk too me. There have been moments where the guy would ignore me while I continue to try to talk to him. You see the cycle, I am tired of it. I was told that I should pray, I have prayed plenty of times in the past. Plus, I believe miracles don’t happen, if it did I wouldn’t be in predicament that I am in as far as my health as personal life. I don’t really go anywhere as it is to meet anyone. And these dating apps and sites suck, it ain’t the same. And I look stupid thinking someone was going to reappear, I see that it’s not going to happen, it been three months since he went poof. He ain’t coming back. Whatever I did m, I won’t do it again.