Idk what to think

i have talked shit about one of my childhood friends because he was homophobic and kind of racist, and the last few times saw him he was always asking questions that were meant to lead to a conflict between us like 'do you think trans people should be aloud to do sport competitions?' like wtf is that.

so I admit that i started talking shit about him with my girls friends.

but even with that I have known him for so long that other that this aspect his personality I still liked him.

but yesterday he send me a message saying I was faked with him etc, I responded and he left me on read. so reached out to him today se we could talk and we did. I thought than we were ok but I just saw that he unfollowed me on Instagram ( I know it sounds dumb) but like idk why I still care, do i really want to be friend with someone that is homophobic I don't think so, but like I'm so hurt and idk why.

also I talked about my issue about him only with 4 people that I trust a lot, and i think i know who told him and I'm hurt about that too, like I trusted him

also I'm afraid that it will impact my relationship with my other friends since we share the same group.

and to finish that kind of sound selfish, but I talked about this to 4 peoples and they were also talking shit about him ( even the one who told him) why I'm the only one that get consequences?

can someone help me idk what I should do I'm lost and scared to lose my friends, I'm not really well at the moment and this was really the last straw.

thank you for reading my rent.