I fully admit this is the second month my husband and I have been trying, and I logically know I’m probably stressing way too early. Still, I need to vent and be emotional for a moment and have people tell me this is going to be okay.

I don’t think I’m ovulating this month. I’m a full week behind where I should have and all my OPK’s are still negative. They’re WERE getting darker until today when it’s suddenly super light again. I know I most likely have issues with a hormone imbalance and due to that I already have a super long cycle - oddly, even though it’s long, it’s always been regular. Every 44 days. Money, unemployment and lack of insurance have kept me from being able to see anyone about it.

Both my tests were super dark ( it still not +) Monday and yesterday, so I was SURE maybe I would get another dark one today. Maybe the stress of my wedding last week pushed my ovulation back... but then I got the faint light this morning and now I’m spiraling mentally. Thoughts like I’m broken, I’m never going to be pregnant naturally and there is NO way we can afford fertility treatments...

I know one missed ovulation isn’t a sign all is horrible and even totally healthy women miss ovulation occasionally. I’m just scared and emotional.

Someone please tell me I’m okay and all hope for having a baby is not lost??